I’ve come to realize over the last few weeks that I have been dreaming too small and have settled into exactly that: settling. God has so much more planned for my life and if I just believed that all things are possible through Him, then I will achieve them.
I have been blessed with certain talents that no one else in this world has. I have certain gifts and it is up to me to use these for God’s purpose.
Part of my problem has been I’ve gotten caught up in believing only things I can see when I need to believe in things I can’t see. Nothing is too big for God to achieve (this includes my measly dream of getting published). I need to trust God for what I can’t see and for what God wants to do. I must be a good steward of what I have in order to get more. I need to ask God for the impossible because all things are possible through Him.
So, I’ve decided to make a list of what to ask God for. This weekend I had determined to sell our third vehicle and get this place subletted. Well, I sold the vehicle on Friday and yesterday I had one guy said he’d fill out the paperwork on Monday. 2 things on my list already accomplished. I’ve decided to get out of my poverty frame of mind and believe I can do anything.
I had been struggling with how hopeless publishing was and wallowing in self-pity and only doggedly writing. Well, I’ve decided my dream will come true since I have asked God for it. I will believe my family has the money to go and do things and not get caught up in the mindset of “I’m broke, I can’t afford it, and No, I’ll wait.” I can afford it because I believe God will provide for me–both my needs and my desires.
Other things on my list to ask God for:
A nice house in the location I want it with what I want it to contain.
A publishing deal.
God to work through me as I edit my newly-finished YA paranormal.
Faith in tithing.
Raise kids good.
A strong, healthy family.