Ever notice a pattern in life where things are going good and smooth. Your job is great. Kids are growing. Bills are paid. Vacation was nice. Bought a house. Painted a fence.
Then, it all changes in what seems a matter of days and you are thrown in limbo again.
Maybe it’s just me who notices this.
I’m anxious again. I find myself aimlessly trolling the Internet for no reason at all. For about 10 minutes. Then I close my computer and do it all over again.
I’m looking for nothing in particular. When in truth I am seeking something. Solace. Serenity. Peace. Knowledge. Him.
It’s that time of year again where we may move houses. Our landlords have the house up for sale and we’re getting a ton of showings. I think it’s only a matter of time.
We’re praying to buy a house–a permanent home–but our chances are not looking good.
Husband’s job always seems to be in flux for some reason. Call it the economy.
My pup had to have emergency surgery today. She should be okay, but it was completely unexpected. And very, VERY worrisome for her mama who couldn’t stand to lose her so quick.
Still waiting on teacher applications. You think with school right around the corner, they’d hurry up. But alas…
My novel has stalled at 30,000 words. Put that down for a bit.
Trying to read books. Have no desire.
I feel like I’m following God’s path for my life but, again, His timing is not mine. I’d just wish He’d hurry up sometimes!
So I pray. I just apologized to God for man’s tendency to pray in crises and not to pray in the good times. Then again, He created us so I’m assuming He understands.
Then I pray some more.
Then I sit. Trying to calm myself. Occupy myself (my house is very clean!). And not stay up late at night typing blog posts because my mind cannot rest.
And wait….on others….on Him….to answer prayers….or not answer them (which is an answer as well).
I focus on breathing and picturing God’s wonders in Nature (waterfalls, etc) that calm me.
Inevitably, peace will come. It just won’t be on my time.
Patience, I whisper to myself.
Then I hear God whisper that as well.
And all is as it should be.