It seems like every year around this time I get down and sometimes depressed.
Last year I was definitely depressed: my husband found out the day before Christmas he would be laid off in a week.
This year, I’m just down for whatever reason. It’s the time of year I look back and look at my goals and see how little I’ve actually accomplished. Mainly, it’s my writing/professional goals that have fallen short and, being this is what I believe my purpose to be (besides being a wife and mother first), it’s very disheartening.
Yet, good, unexpected things have happened as well: BSF and this blog that has taken off to heights I never imagined. I’ve learned a whole lot from the Bible I’ve never learned before. I’ve read quite a bit of the Bible (although haven’t finished it yet). Read some good books. Discovered some new music. Wrote some good books. Became healthier and stronger and hopefully a better wife and mother. Discovered I actually liked homeschooling and miss it.
It’s probably the Devil coming against me–as always at this time of year when our Savior was born. When things are going good, he steps in to try and take you down.
So, I’m going to power through these last few weeks, shake off some annoying things around me, and continue in prayer and thanksgiving for all of my blessings. I’m going to force myself to honor my social commitments (when all I really want to do is crawl into my heated waterbed with my two mangy old dogs and a good book), school commitments, spiritual commitments, and every other commitment on my life. And I’m going to try to be happy about it until this too passes, the weight lifted from my mind, and I feel like myself again.