I’m feeling immensely unsatisfied right now; down on everything–BSF, my family, my Bunko group, unanswered questions and uncertainties in terms of moving, my husband’s job, and schooling.
So, I started writing again.
I began re-reading for the umpteenth time the draft of my latest YA novel and am working on that. I think it’s my best work yet but I always think that. I’m sure others will think it utter crap.
Bored at editing (many of you know I HATE editing), I began to surf the internet. Curious as to what genre my novel falls into, I began researching science fiction, fantasy, and the like. I decided to see what Twilight is classified as since it’s just about everything and has a lot of my same elements. It’s considered all over the board: YA, romance, fantasy, etc.
Then I visited Stephenie Meyer’s website and found this nugget: “With writing, the way you feel changes everything.”
She is speaking in regards to Midnight Sun being leaked on the internet.
But I couldn’t agree more. I write when I feel like it. I don’t write when I don’t feel like it. It definitely takes a certain mindset you have to be in. It’s not like a job with your hands or repetitive. It involves emotion–and for me, a lot of it since I throw myself into it tooth and nail. When I’m down, my characters are down. When I’m up, so are they.
I’m resolved to get this project wrapped up in the next couple of weeks. I’m dying to begin the query process and see if this thing is any good or not or if it will be relegated to just another file on my computer as I move on to my next project. But, I’m taking my time this time, making this as good as I can and then see where it takes me. I’m itching to get started on my next project but I know this one is not finished. I don’t like to multi-task; I have to bring my characters to fruition and then move on to something else.
Good for you! You go, girl!
good for you
I’m feeling this way. I’m so blessed with a wonderful husband, kids and life and most important a really close, special bond with God but I feel something is missing. I’m reading the bible also and I’m in Job and it makes me think that maybe my “hole” that I’m feeling is just a test. Part of my “hole” is the fact that I’m the only Christian (feels that way) in my circle including friends and family. It might be a test to go back to my old life so I’ll be included again with everyone and not feel so lonely. But I never will, nothing is worth my relationship with God. I may be lonely on this earth but nothing can take away my God. I will live my whole life with only God as my friend. :}