I’m feeling immensely unsatisfied right now; down on everything–BSF, my family, my Bunko group, unanswered questions and uncertainties in terms of moving, my husband’s job, and schooling.
So, I started writing again.
I began re-reading for the umpteenth time the draft of my latest YA novel and am working on that. I think it’s my best work yet but I always think that. I’m sure others will think it utter crap.
Bored at editing (many of you know I HATE editing), I began to surf the internet. Curious as to what genre my novel falls into, I began researching science fiction, fantasy, and the like. I decided to see what Twilight is classified as since it’s just about everything and has a lot of my same elements. It’s considered all over the board: YA, romance, fantasy, etc.
Then I visited Stephenie Meyer’s website and found this nugget: “With writing, the way you feel changes everything.”
She is speaking in regards to Midnight Sun being leaked on the internet.
But I couldn’t agree more. I write when I feel like it. I don’t write when I don’t feel like it. It definitely takes a certain mindset you have to be in. It’s not like a job with your hands or repetitive. It involves emotion–and for me, a lot of it since I throw myself into it tooth and nail. When I’m down, my characters are down. When I’m up, so are they.
I’m resolved to get this project wrapped up in the next couple of weeks. I’m dying to begin the query process and see if this thing is any good or not or if it will be relegated to just another file on my computer as I move on to my next project. But, I’m taking my time this time, making this as good as I can and then see where it takes me. I’m itching to get started on my next project but I know this one is not finished. I don’t like to multi-task; I have to bring my characters to fruition and then move on to something else.
I’ve been reading a lot lately on the value of books and what makes a book good. For the longest time, I’ve just been concerned about getting published. Now, I want to have my best work published that says something of value that will last for generations. It’s not just about me anymore.
I do care what my children read. This is why I pick out a majority of their books and read what I want to read to them. Most is just not garbage. I don’t want my books to be fluff either.
Reading fluff is better than not reading but there’s more to it than this. Kids need to learn and think and reflect on characters and situations in order to learn and grow into productive members of society.
Many think Harry Potter and Twilight are fluff. I disagree. They are great books. But I think they get miscategorized into fluff due to their popularity. I want my books to be wildly popular as well. I think you can be popular and be profound at the same time.
“Art is a controlled fury of desire to share one’s private revelation of life–to give the best that is in us to the audience that lives by what it feeds upon.” Frances Clarke Sayers
Great stuff. I would add it’s a desire placed by God within to share one’s revelation of life.
Now, I just have to figure all this out. Easy, right?
When I first read Twilight and Ms. Meyer gave credit to a band that she listened to when she wrote the story, I just didn’t get it. I like to write in silence so I was confused at first. Yet, lately, I’ve gotten it.
Ever since my husband got me my IPod, I’ve been listening to the same 10 songs over and over. These are the songs that most speak to my heart about my life right now and where I want it to head.
Needless to say, they do inspire my writing. I listen to them before I sit down to write and all throughout the day as I ponder what I will write. They take me back to the time and place I need to be…the time my story takes place. They re-new the feelings I had, the ones I’m trying to re-create, and they center me as I type.
Some songs encourage me…telling me I can do this if I only keep trying. Some songs remind me of who I used to be. Others tell me what’s important in this life as I try to convey these messages to others.
What about you? Do you listen to music as you write or are you inspired by music? I’d love to hear your stories.
As I mention in my About page, I’m a writer. I’ve written a non-fiction book on parenting and pregnancy that I used to sell on my own website. However, no one was buying it so the cost began to outweigh the financial gains so I took the site down. Furthermore, my passion moved elsewhere.
Then, at the beginning of this year, I finished my first novel about football. I tried for months to garner the attention of a literary agent so I scratched that idea and it sits on the back burner.
Currently, I’m writing a young adult novel. This one is different than the other two. First, I’m almost done with it. I feel that my passion for this work is infinitely more than my previous two. This means I’ve written the book in about a month. I spend every waking spare moment on it and I feel it only gets better and better. Second, this is the hardest book for me to write as it deals with issues from my past that I don’t think I have thoroughly dealt with.
Finally, I believe this one is the One God has intended for my life in order to help the most people. The first one was just to prove I could do it. The second one was to prove to myself that I could indeed create vivid worlds and live in them. Thus, this one has the most meaning, the most depth, the most provocative, and the most potential helpful of all three so far.
I am so ready–so ready to see my countless hours come to fruition in the written word–hopefully something that will make meaningful impacts in people’s lives.
I once read where Stephenie Meyer, author of the insanely-successful Twilight series (which I would highly recommend) once said that she wrote these books for herself. This truly resonated with me as I feel my planned series will be for me as well. This book (and future ones in the series) is what makes my heart sing. I can only pray that God guides me as I write so the words I choose impacts the most people.
I’d love to hear from other authors and their journeys through novel-writing land.